Got to get in touch with my literary,musical and girly side more often.

Reflecting about life

I love long bus rides. It always gives me time to think about life and well, since i don't actually own an ipod and my phone has almost no battery all the time, i occupy myself by looking out of the window and making observations in my head. There're so many things that i should be, could be doing at this very moment in time, but i have no idea why i'm not doing those. I've let people down, i've made some people happy, but what meaning does my life have? I am somewhat materialistic, i'm not perfect, neither am i an overachiever that is on the route of success. Sometimes, i just don't know what to think anymore.

My new baby!

Finally got it from Yamaha and i can't wait to be able to play it likka pro! Been wanting to learn it since long ago, and i do mean long ago like Primary/Secondary School long but i just never got the chance to. Imprints on fingers? The results will be worth it!!! Can't wait till end of Sat to fully enjoy learning to play!!!

Hey-Oh to Week 3

Am gonna miss my babezzzz who's gone off to London for like 4 years.......... and i didn't get to send her off. Major Sigh. Glad i got to catch up with her and the rest like a week before she left though, major memories forevazxs and am gonna go to LONDON while she's there...someday.

Work's well, mundane and the same-o same-o. Gives a whole new meaning to the term TGIF though cause this time i can actually feel the excitement when it's thursday and friday and leading up to the weekend. Wednesday's the new day i hate most, midweek is a hell lot worse than Mondays, trust me.

Week 2

Week 2 of internship -

x Had lunch with these 2 cutesy tutsies on Wednesday at TP, had to figure a way out of the uluest part of the world...

x This whole system is so new to me i gotta get used to it

x Trying to find a definitive style for myself, is it something that can be made or even seen by yourself?

x FINDING MY PURPOSE IN LIFE

x ways to make my life more enriching.

x NEED. MORE. DRAMA. IN LIFE.

Be the trend, don't follow the trend

Freedom from judgments and trends, i'm just going to be the best me there ever was. Who cares what is right or what is wrong, who has the right to say what is right or wrong, i'm my own person and i'm my own self, on the way to making myself a better me.

Monday Morning

One more week to the end of my miserable week of studying, what better way to end off the week than with my birthday, right? Except for the fact that well, it means i'm becoming older and older and nooooo time should just stop now. i'm 18 and i love it and i'm going to be 18 forever!!

My current snack obsession.... Raisins! I could finish the entire packet within like, an hour and they are so addictive and so......... hopefully healthy ):

I think i dont have an affinity with phone chargers because its a second time mine has died in like 2 years. Both Samsung chargers (Just saying) mysteriously refused to work even though i havent done anything to it! Hate technology and now i've gotta use the usb cable to charge my phone which means that i've gotta turn on the laptop which undeniable is a major source of distraction to charge it and it takes a gazillion years to charge. Or i could turn it off but the idea of being unconnected scares me. When did technology start to take over my life without me even knowing it? What happened to days where i would go out and cycle around the neighbourhood, go for a swim, play card games.. oh wait, that was my childhood which unfortunately for most of today's children ceases to exist. I remember as a kid i was always going over to neighbour's houses to play (not electronic games) and being jealous over people who always had the newest electronic games which i didn't or even if i did i had to share. Come to think of it now, i'm glad i didnt have those. It gave me the chance to explore the natural world, pick the red flowers and pull out the stem that has some juice in it, (no idea what its called) and to just run around and play. These days i'm stuck inside, spending hours online watching dramas or on the television during my breaks. Major realisation. New goal - During the measly one week break before the dreaded internship, one week fast of no internet, no tv and just fun filled days before the 6 months of doom comes. Anyone with any idea of how to have fun outside please please please tell me okay!